“It’s like having completely a new sense. It’s not sight or taste or touch– it’s something much weirder.”
“But being someone else isn’t liberating
“I always thought that if I had amazing hair, if I could pull off great boots, if I could fly–
–that would make me feel strong. That I would feel happy.”
“But the hair gets in my face, the boots pinch…
…and this leotard is giving me an epic wedgie.”
“What made me happy…”
“What made me happy was seeing Zoe take a breath of air. Even though she makes everyone feel like crap…”
“I’m glad I was there. I’m glad she lived.”
In this scene, Kamala was just given special abilities by Captain Marvel, Captain America, and Ironman. The illustrations show that the fog is still clearing from the panels, demonstrating that there is still this sense of confusion in the air. Also Kamala is shown almost identical to Captain Marvel, aside from a slight costume change. However, instead of being excited and happy about her newfound abilities, or as Kamala calls it “a new sense,” she is depicted showing feelings of sadness and confusion. I believe that relates directly to what she explains in this scene. Kamala believed that is she could be strong and beautiful with great hair and great boots she would feel amazing and unstoppable, but instead she realizes that by being someone you are not can be extremely “exhausting.”
I believe that the bolded words in this scene serve a very important purpose. I read the bolded words as if Kamala was questioning what they actually meant, for example when she says in the first line, “It’s like having completely a new sense. It’s not sight or taste or touch– it’s something much weirder,” I believe sense and weirder are setting the tone of confusion and they help the reader understand that Kamala doesn’t quite know what is happening to her yet and she does not know what the future will hold for her and her new abilities. The rest of the bolded words in this passage, seem to also emphasize the idea that all of these things that she thought she wanted, great hair, great boots, a nice costume, isn’t what really matters. The one event that really matter in this scene is that she was able to save Zoe from drowning. When Kamala was able to save Zoe it put all of these materialistic things out of her mind and she saw and much more potential she had.
One more interesting thing I found in this passage, mainly about the illustration, was that Kamala looked identical to Captain Marvel, including her skin color. I found this interesting because Kamala says on a different page, “Zoe thought that because I snuck out, it was okay for her to make fun of my family. Like Kamala’s finally seen the light and kicked the dumb inferior brown people and their rules to the curb.” Kamala obviously loves her family but she knows that compared to everyone else, she is different because of her skin color and her religious views. But when she asks Captain Marvel to be like her, and her skin was changed, I feel as if part of her identity and background was stripped away from her, which was apart of the reason she felt so strange and exhausted. Soon she will come to see that it’s okay for her to stand up for what she believes in and that there really is “No Normal” when it comes to race, religion, and her background.